Old dog seeks new trick

[Old Dog]

WAW (argh, I used it again: and it feels bad) has a very successful older brother. He's 10 years older and has been CEO of companies. He's now written a book about managing. It's good: and he's a nice cheerful fellow.

In this book is am image of a man drawing lines in the night sky from star to star with the caption 'know where you are going'. WAW likes this very much, so her kindly brother got her a t-shirt, a mug, notebook and a postcard all with the same image on.

Her career (like mine) never took off. In fact she hasn't had a career, just unfulfilling jobs: then we had children and she stayed at home to look after them, returning to more unfulfilling part time work a few years ago, so she's there when they come home from school.

I mentioned previously, she now has a new full time job*, 2 minutes from where we live and loves it.

I just wonder how much she looks at her brother and what she thinks about how their lives have panned out. She has the ability to do very well. Does she see me as anchor sapping her energy?

Whatever the case, I've my PMA to work on. I want to be the man she wants. If at the end of the day I make the changes and she still doesn't want me, I'll devasted again, but I will be in a much better frame of mind. Now back to the ironing and singing.

* which I incidently found - not seeking stars/praise - I was just trying to help. And now I think about it, wasn't that pro-active? I do believe it was. I will give myself a star after all. this isn't the same as seeking stars from others, this is internal positive recognition.