"I was responding to Kimmerz.....and expressing feelings not harping, but okay."
That's not the point and you know it.
"As for Matt's thread, I was showing him that it is common, but again, okay."
Go back and read your post. You weren't telling him it was common. You were interjecting your pain into his situation rather than showing him how he can deal with it better.
See, you're not getting it. All you do is vent. That's fine, but then you vent and complain and wonder why you can't move on. You go through bouts of depression and keep complaining.
My W went through MLC, so I totally get the frustration you are going through. My W also had an OM who just so happened to be her boss. So I understand that part. But the point is that I didn't let it consume me. I went into depression, sure, but I got out of it. I didn't have to deal with my parent dying and losing my job. But you can either let it eat you alive or you can make you stronger. For me, my children were my inspiration to get stronger. You can do the same.
That's why it's important for you to write down things that are positive. Even when you're talking about your rats, you centered on how short their life spans were rather than how great they are. In fact, how about talking about the joy with your sons.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.