Old dog seeks new trick

[Old Dog]

Last Sunday was Father's Day here in the UK. One of my presents, sourced by WAW ( that's the first time I've used that term :-( was a small jar with a few cards in. Some of them had activities written on them, some you are supposed to fill in yourself. Sounds quite nice, except that the name on the jar and cards is 'Adventures with Dad'.

The second I saw this, I felt as though I'd been stabbed through the heart. Of course I want have fun with my kids, we did yesterday when W was away (see above), but here she is saying we're separate now but you still need to be a good father. Yeah, I know, thanks for the reminder. It took a great deal of energy to remain cool that day, but inside I was in pieces and it's the first thing I thought of when I woke up this morning.

When this happens, it just takes over your mind pushing everything else out. It makes me want to cry again. PMA, PMA come on odsnt, you can do this. I know I'll get through it, but I so want to change my mindset and be a glass half full person. Oh dear there's a tear. Time to get up and get on and keep busy. Don't know when W is coming back today, I didn't ask and she hasn't said. I miss her. The W I had when we had a good relationship.