25yearsmlc is right. I hear more blaming on your part and centering on the A than actually trying to understand what's really going on. You're still in the anger stage of all this. A little humility would help.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.