First off, really really glad Lillian is improving and Social Services is resolved.
Secondly, nobody should ever expect to have sufficient control in labor and delivery to DB with the baby's father. Give yourself a break. You behaved the way a woman in labor behaves. That was right and true and it's ok. tell you the truth, you sound a lot nicer than some of us do while we are in labor...I mean, I recall a few harsh words at my h when he 'rubbed me the wrong way!!" and that, unfortunately, is an actual example. And we were not doing any DBing then!
you have issues to work on for sure, but THIS^^ labor behavior, is just NOT one of them, sweetie.
Thirdly, you have a newborn baby. Recover, bond with her, take comfort in her. Whatever happens or doesn't with you H is temporary compared to that.
More hugs, more prayers, more support for you. Be well and find peace.
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M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
