prayers please

[twinmom]

H just took the twins for a haircut at the mall. He asked me to go with, it took a lot to say no. Baby steps for me right now. This morning I stayed in my room till Lillian woke up to eat which was about 10 min before H left for a work/charity event. I didn't speak to him.
He sent me a text about the event (just making small talk) I didn't resound.
He sent a text asking if 2pm would be ok for haircuts. I responded immediately yes.
He sent another text talking about the event and telling me what time he would be leaving. I didn't respond.
He called on his way home, I answered and was very quiet/didn't elaborate on any of my answers. He asked me if I was going with him and I said no. It was a short conversation.
I kept myself busy while he was here, I fed the twins lunch and got them ready to go. Then I went in my room.

I feel like I need to hold myself accountable for every interaction right now