I guess I'm Scared to detach. I'm fighting holding on to the last bit that I can because I feel so sad/humiliated/defeated by his words to all of our friends about it being over. I know this is an internal battle that only I can fix but I know that's where it's coming from. FEAR. I know I need to LET GO I am closer each day but not there quite yet. And some days I most definitely back slide. Unfortunately because our contact is so limited I can't afford to back slide
You are where I was with this not too long ago. I felt like detaching and giving up were the same thing. They are not. Don't get me wrong, I have not completely detached but feel I am making baby steps. You need to stop analyzing everything he is doing or saying, stop letting HIM control YOUR emotions or what you do or don't do. That does not mean you have to give up on your M.
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
