Old dog seeks new trick

[Old Dog]

And so to the longest day of the year and it's her big day out with a couple friends that she intends to tell and one she already has told. I now know that this is how women get support: just by talking with friends (source: Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus). She said a while ago 'that friends will probably think I'm crazy to end our relationship' but I know they won't try and dissuade her either. That's OK, I'm not expecting them to and I want her to have support.

Now here's an interesting thing. Despite getting up early enough, she came to me and said that she's messed up. She should be at the station (half an hour away) by 9am and it's now 8:20 and she's missed the bus.

I said 'do you need me to drive you there?' I didn't pick the word 'need', but I'm quite pleased it came out. She hadn't asked, I offered, but I used the need word. She said 'I don't want to take the p***, but yes'.

She's flustered trying to get ready quickly and on the way out drops a couple of things: clearly a little stressed. And in the car, she's trying to sort her bag about and drops more things. And then she says 'this is symptomatic of how I'm feeling at the moment, I'm trying to get things straight'.

Whoa!, Wait a minute, she's not as cool, calm and collected as I thought. In fact, during the journey she apoligised for spending the whole evening upstairs on her own. She was trying to collect her thoughts. She also asks if my therapy session went well last week. I am trying the dark thing, so she just gets 'uh huh', 'OK' or a 'yes, thank you'.

She thanks me for the lift, I say 'no probem, it's what I do'. I wish I hadn't said the last bit as she and S2 collect me from the station every Friday - although amazingly, I have expressed my heartfelt appreciation for this not too long ago.

I drop her off with 'I hope you have great day' and she replies similarly. No, ILYs or anything.

Now to have some fun with the boys ... if I can get one out of bed and the other hasn't stayed up all night with his pals.