You are so much stronger than I am. I am struggling with being dark/NC bc of the kids because I feel like I have to make myself available for legal purposes so he can't say I am keeping the boys from him. As I said before I gave him my schedule to avoid any contact or to make it a minimum and he still didn't show up!
I guess I'm Scared to detach. I'm fighting holding on to the last bit that I can because I feel so sad/humiliated/defeated by his words to all of our friends about it being over. I know this is an internal battle that only I can fix but I know that's where it's coming from. FEAR. I know I need to LET GO I am closer each day but not there quite yet. And some days I most definitely back slide. Unfortunately because our contact is so limited I can't afford to back slide
