Thanks CB and Heather, I guess it's just hard to understand how simply doing something that I would do for anyone that was in a similar position and needed my help I would do for them, could be seen by my W has so "wrong" or challenging her independence. Of course I don't understand anything she thinks or does. It's gotten worse as she has sped her flight from her M a few weeks ago. I don't trust that she has any values left that she had before. While I don't think she wants to do anything to hurt me, I don't think she cares about anything but getting what she wants at any given moment or who may get hurt for her to get it.
I think she is scared of losing her father before she can feel like he really does love her the way she's always wanted him to. I think she is afraid of running out if time in her own life before she grows old. I really don't like the person she has become. She's a taker and puts herself and her own desires before even her D's best interests. It's like she resents that she sacrificed so much over the last 18 years and just wants what she thinks will make her happy.
I just need to keep my focus on me. My D's b-day is tomorrow and see's away. She will be 19. First b-day I've ever missed with her. By the time she gets back her mom will probably be moved out. Need to make sure everything is comfortable when she gets home.
Got half my money today and it feels good to have it available. Need to keep working toward keeping that going!
