The W is spending more time with the boys now than ever. Tonight she took them to a local RailTrail for a bike ride. The other day she took then to a guitar store for S16. I still believe this is the guilt talking but atleast it's something. The bad part... speaking and having her help me with the rack really made me want some physical contact. Why, with all this hurt and anger would I desire a kiss.
I (we) have always wanted to do stuff but with W controling all the finances we never had the money... or she had to work and wouldn't play hookie. But we always had "stuff" whether we needed it or not. When she moved out, I counted 14 pair of her sneekers. 12 pair of jeans. And I got read the riot act if I bought a soda or magazine. We never had the money to do the things we wanted, only what she wanted. For 20 years, I could have no imput into our finances. Now, I'm in control though with a little family help until I can build up a base. Yeah, we waited too.
Today for some reason was a bad day. I just felt down and upset. Seeing her tonight so I could install the bike rack on her van was ok. Also told her my schedule wasn't working for getting the boys to a councelor. Her working retail leaves a lot more flexibility.
Found OM's full address in a bing map search. Already knew the street just by doing a google search many months ago. Funny that she told my mom someone thought I would have her followed.
I would really like to figure out some sort of working relationship with her. We are going to have to co-parent so we will need to find a wat to get along.
