Overall a good day. Got lots done at work today and went to lunch with a colleague.
Now that I'm home, my PMA has taken a dive. I just feel discouraged at the moment, like there's no point in trying to save my relationship. Thinking about all the planning we were doing and how excited she seemed about our future right before the bomb has me wondering what was real and what wasn't.
Perhaps she was only with me because I was a good dad to her daughter? Perhaps she hasn't loved me in a long long time?
Haven't heard from WAW since Father's Day. I just feel down when I think about how all this happened so quickly. How can she just let me go like that after all the sh!t I went through to be there for her and daughter. I feel taken advantage of and used.
I'm also experiencing anger, particularly when I'm driving and stuck in traffic. I know this is part of the process, I just struggle with it because I'm usually a pretty easy going guy.
I know, detach and GAL.
Sorry about the pity party, I'm just not feeling very DB today.
