FINALLY SURFACING

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Short dialogue with W Tuesday.
I texted W and asked her two ask D7 about a birthday in the upcoming weekend. W returned an answer and then asked about karate today. She ended up calling and we had a short talk.

Wednesday I picked up Ds. So good to see them again.
I had short talk with D7 in the evening. She – once again – stated that she wishes that W and I live together, that she misses and that she is sad. I validated as much as possible and told her it was so good she shared this. We talked shortly and agreed to talk to her teacher Thursday so D7 and teacher could also have a short chat.
A little texting back and forth with W because of some mix up at Karate class.

Thursday D7 was sick (or perhaps she just wanted a day off) so no talk with teacher. I took her with me to the office and she was there for 3 hours getting spoiled. Her own desk, laptop, a Coca Cola and a nice experience. Afterwards we did some shopping and then picked up D5 early. The evening was nice. D7 seems sad every time she goes to sleep.

I texted W in the evening:
Me: “Can you pack some more clothes to D5 and D7 that I can pick up tomorrow. (D5 lacks bla bla bla and D7 bla bla bla)
D7 has been sick today and therefore not to school
Have a nice evening. We’ll talk later
F”

W: “Off course I can. Still the stomach? Say hi to both and speedy recovery to D7-mouse” (D7-mouse is a local expression – a loving nickname)

Me: “Super. Stomach is not good but better. Perhaps she cheated a little today ;-)”

W: “;-) It is also nice to have a day at home with you”

Me: “I believe she enjoyed. I took her to the office and that was big :-) Afterwards some errands and then we picked up D5 early.
Lets see about the stomach tomorrow.”

Today I saw W when I picked up the clothes. Short and nice. We talked for 3 min about Ds and clothing and W told me she was visiting family with SIL – just the two of them . I initiated a hug when I left.
SIL has been posting peculiar things on FB about how one should work on an R instead of leaving it. She is divorced herself and these posts got me thinking for a while. SIL (and MIL) still likes almost every post I put on FB.

Communication with W has been almost daily and still nice. I still find myself on the small rollercoaster. A sentence like” It is also nice to have a day at home with you” gives me hope and a no-answer on the last text, takes it away.
This is due to me mindreading and I it is easy for me to let these feelings go – or easier than earlier on