So... my DD was in a car accident last night, while coming to pick me up at work. She got rear ended & was pushed & swerved into oncoming traffic. Her responses were quick & avoided a head on collision. She banged her head & was deeply cut open (no stitches, they use glue). Otherwise she is OK and a little sore today. Car is a write off.
^^^^ THIS is a blessing!! I am EXTREMELY GREATFUL that she responded quickly to the oncoming vehicle. HE even came out to congratulate her on her quick response. This could have been a different kind of accident. THAT scares me!! As this happened in front of our work, Xbf and I were both there at the time. I am grateful for that too. He did the dad thing (took care of cops/car) and I did the mom thing with my D. We declined the drama of the ambulance ride & he drove us to the hospital. He then took us into town to grab take out before driving us back to my parents place. He texted her later in the evening to check up on her.
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I am hanging on to being BLESSED!! I am ever so grateful!!
I am working so hard to understanding how to let go... by trying sooo hard to keep my thoughts on my daughter/self & focus on my values. Reverting my thoughts off him & back to myself. ITs ALOT of concentrated energy. I never realized how hyper-focused I really am (even though you all told me)... until these last few days of effort.
When does the pain stop?
I find myself wanting to behave like a martyr and want to indulge in the pain...not sure why. Its not like its going to get me closer to my goal. Its damaging, actually.
Why do I insist I want to be with a person who is not good enough for me?
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
