hug your demons

[needgrace]

Hi Betsey,

Thanks for your note and your kind thoughts. I bet that workshop was inspiring. That is wonderful that you took advantage of it.

I love that perspective on your surgery. I feel the same... So much came up, not only to be grateful for but to look deeply into within myself. A a kid I lived outside NYC and when we went into the city, I would worry that I could never be a successful adult bc I would never be able to understand how to build bridges and tunnels. Funny story I know, as I still don't understand but am still able function okay as an adult

I carry that little girl inside me still and that part of me surfaced again before and after the surgery, thinking that I would not be able to handle it... that part of me stops me at times from taking on adventures and challenges.. and i am working on that and other things.. the journey continues..

I realized last night at dinner with some friends.. they were asking me if I was okay with being friends with the gf I was dating off and on this year.. bc she was joining us later... that the reason I am ok with it is that I am still healing from the D.. wow.. it has been almost 3 years since BD.. and I am finally starting to truly feel myself again. There have been times that I felt better.. and thought I had healed... but it is just now that I really feel me again..

I was curious how long it has taken for others here.