Roller coaster and then some

[daring]

I have some more insight into where his mind is. Yesterday evening he opened up and talked more about things.
Said he isn't worried about how I will do, that I'm in a healthy place and I never needed him anyway ( not said in a sarcastic tone but more of you aren't codependent and I am suggestion). Then said he's glad we can communicate how we are right now, but worries when one it both if us are in relationships. Then said he knows I don't like to hear all that and he's sorry he has a lack of filter in discussing his thoughts.
Then the piece that I think might indicate why he's been the way he is recently came out. He said in counseling he has been working through how he got to a place of having an EA and the resultant effects. We had to stop the conversation as the kids came in, but he said he would share more later if I wanted to know.

I'm thinking he thinks he just hurts me too much and can't deal with it? I'm mind reading I know. But I can't help it. I see so much opportunity for us. And he is who I want a relationship with but I know I'm not in control of that.

Trying to stop and focus on the positives- he is being open and friendly and even loving. And what I need to work in is not being so insecure about every girl he has a friendship with and realize that I will be ok no matter what.