H and I went to dinner last night. We had so much fun. He was like an anxious teen on a first date ;-)

At the end, we were in the car and just ended up both bawling. He said he was so sorry for what he did. He said he loved me and wants us to stay married. He wants to come home but is confused and scared we can't get through this. I cried and expressed how hurt I was. I got angry a few times but was able to catch it and dial back quickly so did OK on that front (but definitely still room for improvement). I started to tell him some of what I am going through and what I'd need from him to feel safe. He said he understood and would do whatever it takes.

We hugged for a long time and then left agreeing that we would talk more very soon. We did not come up with a specific plan for him coming home just yet but we're on the cusp. I need to prepare myself for next steps.

M: 42
H: 43
M: 8 years
S7 and D4
H has D19 and S25 from previous M
Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA
1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail
2nd separation: 5/1/14