"Im going to tell her im going and im doing this for you and make it all about her ill try my best not to contact her at all until she does."
STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP! Geez do you learn ANYTHING! I don't know how much clearer I can say this. IF YOU TELL HER THAT, YOU WILL LOSE HER. Just pack up your stuff and say that you respect her wishes. Say that you understand what got you to this point and understand how she feels.
DO NOT tell her you're doing it all for her.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.