Old dog seeks new trick

[Old Dog]

Oh dear. I felt quite perky last night when I posted the previous update. Now I've had another terrible night. Panicky, crying, mind racing ten to the dozen etc. And for the frst time checked her email and facebook history for signs of anything - not an affair, at least I don't have that to contend with - but something. There was none. I know that's a big no no, but hey ho, the mind is a powerful thing. And yet, they are just thoughts that are passing through your brain.

I did remember something that my unobservant mind picked up on recently. She has bought two pairs of new shoes in the past month. Yeah yeah, she's a woman: women like shoes, I hear you say. But these had heels, not big heels, but definately heels. She's never worn heels before: with me anyway. I'm not a fan of heels, I just don't get it. Oh and we went somewhere as a family last weekend where she put on lipstick. Again, out of the ordinary. Not unknown, but she's usually very minimal with make-up, which I prefer, but what's going on here, the beginings of an independent life?

Got to get a grip now and get the kids ready for school.

And breathe in, breathe out.