Sorry you're struggling. I think you just need time to establish some new routines. Once you start to get some consistent routines, you'll start to balance out.
Try not to worry about what WAH is doing, I know it's hard not to obsess. I'm sure this isn't a cake-walk for him either. He sent you a picture the other day, you were on his mind.
I think if you can stay dark, he might start to wonder about you. It hurts like hell, but it really is your best option IMO.
