[BrightFuture]

NLT, good to “see” you! Thanks for the kind words. Yes, I feel like I’m fully back on the job front. I barely think about H during the day. And online dating… I think I am at the point when I can take some “abuse”, in terms of reading some things. In his profile, on the question about the hair he has “No”, hehe. He might be very bold by now. I haven’t seen him without a ball cap for a long time, so I don't know.

FY, I agree with you, we are not done yet. Your hope inspires me. Even though I’m not sure what I want anymore. I ask myself constantly if I would want H back. And most of the time the answer is No. Not the way he is right now, or with these traits that he had pre-DB (angry, selfish, detached.) I would want the “old” H back, but I think that it is not going to happen. Sometimes I think that I just want to stay single and do whatever I want in my life. Am I entering into my own MLC? IDK. Sometimes it feels like it.

Going to the vacation home tomorrow. My other friend is going to be there and my (mutual) friends are having his family from Europe for a visit. I met them when H and I were at our friend’s wedding. I’m very excited to see everyone!