Hurt and Confussed

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ouch #4 hurts....that's why I felt some urgency in trying to do something. maybe that explains her wanting a fast divorce, so she doesn't feel guilty. I always felt as if she wants to test the waters and keep me as plan b...I told her I will never be plan b...the house is in both our names, but I told her if you want me to leave you will have to pay all the bills in the house and the mortgage. its weird because she wants to keep everything under both our names...the insurance the house the cars etc etc. like if we are still married but divorced. my house is a mess everytime I go by...she took down all our wedding pictures but left all the other pictures of us up???? she also has told her family that she is lonely in the house and scared when the girls stay with me...yesterday was the first time in 3 months that she texted me to have the girls call her...