I think the want to drink was very strong before he left. The atmosphere at his job is most of them drink and party and do drugs and cheat on their wives. He used to complain about it all the time because he didn't like it. I guess he likes it now.
I think that's part of the reason he left. So he could be free to do those things. I don't understand it. But it seems that and his 23 year old buddy are the most important things in his life.
He still to this day has not been open with me about what the problems were in our marriage. And when he said he wanted to come home I asked him what boundaries he needed from me to facilitate the process. He said we would work that out. Hasn't happened, he refuses to tell me so I just flounder and do nothing.
He hasn't called d15 since the incident Tuesday. That's pretty normal as he cycles on her also, sometimes going weeks without speaking to her and then all of a sudden he will call a bunch of times in a day and text. But I would have thought that after Tuesday he would want to speak with her if nothing else than to try to ease what had happened. But no.
I'm trying to let go and make a better life for me and d. That's all I can do. It's really hard and it's really sad.
