It's been a while, but things are improving

[JustLearning]

Hi DNO and RS, thank you so much for responding. It helps to keep myself grounded. I didn't even need to call my C yesterday.

Alright, so call me a schmuck. I didn't say anything to him yesterday. He was just too da*n happy, I couldn't seem to bring myself to change it. I was a bit cool when he got here in the am, but was able to actually forget about it for a while in class.

When I got out of class I had a voicemail. It was H saying he was going out tool shopping and was wondering if I wanted to meet him and S8 for lunch after shopping. I called him back and couldn't seem to say no.

We actually had a pretty good time. He had to go back to work to get some things done for Monday, but told me that he's had a pretty good time and we've been getting along really well lately. He seems happy about that. These are the things he did for me while he was here:

1. He started my car to get it warmed up while I finished getting ready for class.

2. He cleared the snow out of the driveway.

3. He did all the dishes in the sink (and ran the dishwasher)

4. He called me to have lunch and shop with him and S8.

So, I can't really ignore the positves happening here just because my suspicion is peaked. I may still bring up the OW topic, just have to find a good time to do it.

DNO, this suspicion came after I spoke to one of the women that used to work for my H, and she is still in the same building as the OW. She said the information she's heard is pretty accurate. Not really sure what to believe. It's kind of like believing 3rd hand information. She's not getting the info from either the OW or my H directly. I know this woman cares alot for me and my H, we've known her for years. So, it's really hard to know what I should believe or not.

And to be honest, I don't really know what my intuition is telling me. Because he's been really connecting and much more happy recently makes me want to think it's because of being with me, and not that he's figured out how to live 2 separate lives successfully.

Anyway, he's supposed to be here again today. The boys have an awards banquet for Scouts this afternoon. We'll see what today brings.

I do feel a bit better, but the doubt is still there.

After 2 1/2 years, this rollercoaster is getting a bit old! Love sure does make us do strange things!

Any more wise words of wisdom would be great!

JL