For me, I hate, hate, hate what COULD be for my girls. But, the reality is that their dad is in no condition to parent them right now. He is selfish, self-involved, self-centered and Self Will Run Riot.
If he WAS present in their lives consistently, I'm not sure that it wouldn't cause them MORE pain and destruction...at this point.
I'm sorry for your pain. I know this isn't what you wanted for your two precious girls and it's so far from what they deserve from a dad.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson