Oh I've read your posts. And I've also seen how you backslid. Let me tell you something. I wasn't a believer in having IC either. But I was open enough to at least try. You are the type of person whom I think needs to learn from another human being face to face. And when you mess up, you need that person that you can call and meet up with who can teach you how to cope. To me, this is better than any book.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.