prayers please

[twinmom]

Ok, so I finally turned on the computer to make it easier to type such a long update and beg for advice.
OW was sent screenshots (not by me)of text conversation with H flirting like crazy with another person. She kicked him out on Sunday. H stayed the night sunday at my house (I was at the hospital with Lillian) and then on Monday Lillian was released. Monday night H stayed on the couch again.

H has taken a weeks vacation, he goes back to work next Monday. He has just "jumped" back into our lives like he never left. Besides physical affection with me/sleeping on the couch and some cold/sad moods(OW won't talk to him and he keeps texting her that he loves/misses her and begging her to work things out)it's like nothing has changed.

My S8 is crawling into his lap again to watch tv, S13 is asking for help with math homework(yes, his school requires weekly summer online homework)and he is joining us for all activities, even when I tell him I got it covered. He joins us for all meals, and takes the older boys to run errands.....

His conversation with me has ALMOST returned to what it once was, with him asking where I am if I don't come home and texting for no reason at all. Just no sexual conversation. Yesterday he offered to take the boys to basketball but cut his hand as he was leaving so I took them telling him I wanted to get out of the house anyway. Camp is 2hrs and I usually come home inbetween drop off/pick up. Well yesterday I had Lillian with me and was talking to some other moms and didn't come home. After about an hour I get a text asking how Lillian is, ummmmm she is fine it's only been an hour and a half since we left. I responded that she was being social and H wanted to know where we were. Then H asked if I was going to Target and I replied that I might go later after the kids were in bed and he was like 'oh, I kind of wanted to get out of the house'.... well, leave then duh!(didn't say that just thought it)

After dinner I told H I was taking the kids to feed the ducks at the lake downtown(about 15min walk, 5min drive) I got the kids ready and grabbed a loaf of bread. H starts to get in the car too, I told him it was ok I could handle it myself. He said no, it's ok I will go.

Today I had a dr. appointment and H went with. I don't know why as I am not pregnant so it was just making sure I was ok (swelling in my legs/feet and possible high blood pressure but everything is fine)
I told H I was needed to go to Orland Park (little over an hour drive) to get another bra.(too big for regular stores, have to order online or go to speciality store)I said I wasn't going today as they close at 5pm and Lillian had a dr appointment at 3 so I wouldn't make it but I might go tomorrow. H asked if they were open on the weekends and I said yes,and asked why. He said the his mom wanted to visit with Lillian tomorrow at noon. I am ok with that so I told him no problem I will go saturday morning. H has a charity event saturday morning for work, he asked for me to wait til the afternoon so he could go with. I told him it was ok I could handle it and he said no he would go.

Tonight I asked the boys if they wanted to go see How to Train Your Dragon 2 and they did. H started getting everyone ready and again I told him he didn't have to go I could handle it. He said no, it's ok I will go.

He calls me sweetie on a regular basis. I make sure to not say it back.

When I first asked him if he wanted to go to Day out with Thomas he agreed and I told him that it was a long drive and asked if he wanted to stay the night before. He said no, he didn't care how early we had to leave. Today he brings up the topic and asks me if we should get a hotel room.

OW sent me a text this morning "I am so sorry"

Here are my concerns/problems/what should I do/just give me some advice PLEASE

H wants OW back/he still loves her. If she were to call right now he would be in her bed before I could even shut the door behind him.
I am afraid that the boys will be hurt again by him "coming home" and then leaving.
I am hurt that he is fighting for her/their relationship when he didn't even open his mouth to tell me anything was wrong much less fight for our family.
I know I will be hurt when he leaves again.
I am afraid I will start wanting the physical affection (which he sure as hell doesn't show any signs of wanting)