Help Please: Chapter 2

[Maybell]

Well.

I got a hug and a kiss on the cheek hello and a compliment on my dress. We had a quiet, pleasant talk about his trip. A fair amount of catching up about the kids. Some talk about my trip with the kids and a few questions about my family. All very friendly and it wasn't even difficult.

He asked a few questions about furniture and I didn't even feel prickly. I asked about tomorrow and I'm off the hook for lunch, thankfully. He apologized that we hadn't connected better on the phone while he was traveling and I acknowledged that I had needed that time away from him. He asked if we could have dinner together when I get back. I hesitated, then asked what the purpose would be? He said "To not feel so... Estranged." I told him I'd consider it and let him know.

I feel pretty good about this interaction. I got a lot more out of it than I even hoped for. Strangely, one of the things I got back that I've been missing all day was my detachment. The whole time I was with him I felt mainly curiosity about what I would see and hear from him. I enjoyed his company, too, and I have been worrying that I had forgotten that there was anything about him I even liked. We spent about 45 minutes together and I was good with that amount of time.

We are still separated and still closer to divorce than reconciliation. But I feel more at peace than I did two hours ago, so it was a well-spent evening.

Thanks to all of you who had such passionate views on my sitch. it is nice to know you care.