Just an update, not much to report. Same story, just a different day. I have been enjoying the summer though, which is a great thing since last summer sucked! I'm not in that depression like last year.

I haven't really done much, except read. I've read so much since I got out of school that I even have amazed myself. I love it!! With my S10 at his dad's most of the summer, its been just me and S7. I've been taking him to swim lessons that he seems to love which is fun to watch (and of course take a book to read during his lesson ) Went to my aunts for 4th of July weekend and had a good time. The kids basically lived in their pool the whole weekend!

Ever since my H said that he thinks he wants to try, I've hardly seen him. He seems to have buried himself back into his work, although he's started complaining that its getting too much. Not that he'll do much about it. On average we see him about once a week.

He came over Sunday. When he walked in I got the feeling like oh well, yippee, you're here, what do you want, a gold star? I'm beginning to feel like I'm supposed to jump for joy when he shows up, but don't really give a hoot.

Does he come over just so that he can check to see the house is still standing? That his son is clean and fed? Does he come over to show he can be the wonderful family guy?

I don't know, and am beginning to not care. I still like seeing him, but I don't get too jazzed anymore. I still love him, but am getting tired of feeling used and disrespected.

But my life moves on. I got an A in my Math class and I just registered for fall classes. Three classes again, but only one is at night this semester. I don't start until after Labor Day, but my kids start in a couple of weeks. yeah!

For me, my life has become pretty steady and calm. Even enjoyable. I've stopped talking to H about our R, which helps me some. I don't feel agitated. But I think my H is wondering what's up. He hasn't said anything. When he was here on Sun, he'd stand there, like he was waiting for me to say something and when I didn't he wasn't quite sure what to do, so he'd go back out to the garage.

It's about time he felt awkward!

Anyway, life moves forward for me and my boys. We will be fine, I know that now. It's a good feeling. Just wish I could say the same about my Marriage.

Take care,
JL

Life is not measured in the breaths we take, but in the moments that take our breath away...