I have to stop this. Everytime I have a moment of inactivity this consumes me. And I contact and try to talk her into coming back. Its like the old me is still fighting to come out, and I hate him. She says she not ready for anything yet, and anymore contact about M from this point forward will probably set me back to far. When I catch myself drifting, stop and think like you do with the anger. Is it the right thing to push or constantly bring it up heck no!!! Starting tonight, at 736 where I am, no more M talk. I can only worry about me, that's it. The OM doesn't matter, the separation doesn't matter, I hurt her more than I could imagine, and to bring it up more is totally selfish and egotistical. No more!!!
