Today was tougher than I expected. H will be in town again in about an hour; I'll see him early tomorrow morning till lunch time. It appears he's going dark on me too. I'm sad. Wishing for a friendlier relationship at least.
I am the problem here. Mostly. I am happy to not contact him. I see no purpose to it. But I haven't figured out the light tone & smile yet. I plan to head out for a run as soon as I can after he arrives, get a shower and run some errands after.
He may ask me to have lunch out with him & the kids, and he has already asked for a tour of the kitchen so I can tell him what I don't mind him taking. I really don't want to have lunch with him but don't have other plans. I already gave him a written list of what he can have from the kitchen and told him I didn't care -- it's just stuff.
He may actually WANT to see me for lunch... His 40th birthday is the day after tomorrow but he's leaving tomorrow after lunch to go to a music festival. I don't know how to behave around him or the right things to do.
I was doing so well and now I just hate that I'm here.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
