A thought I had earlier. The W is always saying that I am getting help and she is just getting by. No money to pay for counseling and what not. Not entirely true, but what if I offered to pay out of my pocket for the counseling services? Is that too much, seems like pursuing, but also offering her help if she wants it!!
For some reason I have a gut feeling that I need to fight for this head on. I keep hearing I didn't do enough to get her to stay, didn't try to have sex with her for the last year, she said she didn't want too. She had a very bad self image thing going on. Depressed, saying she was fat, ugly, didn't have clothes that fit. I just think to let her go entirely is wrong. The depression thing has me miffed. To get over that it takes help, and positive affirmations, but right now may not be the time. Since she has opened a bit lately I think maybe that's where this is coming from. We still have a fair amount of contact over girls though. And maybe just being friends is coming to play in her mind.
I hope I can drop all this stuff over the weekend and enjoy my trip. Makes my head spin around.
