You have lots to work on and now you have the time to do it. You're separated, contact should be about the kids only. During those contacts if she wants to open up to you, she will.

You're not going to miss a chance.

What are you doing about all of your issues?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss