Thanks Guys! Tried to post but I'm STILL having Internet problems at home.
The not knowing if I would have the funds to just live has weighed heavy on me, more than I thought! It's like having all this built up pressure finally released. I'm sure it has had a big effect on how I've been dealing with my W for awhile. I'm still very concerned about how she is going to take care of D14 when she has her. She works late almost every night and I know she will just leave her there alone. My W seems to think that at 14 she can fend for herself but I know that it's the time after school before a parent comes home where most kids get into trouble. Just yesterday she was supposed to take our D to get her phone activated and then see her new home for the first time. She ended up just not showing up or calling until 8:30 last night. I think she was taking stuff to her new place in her friends truck but that is no longer my business. It just doesn't bode well for the future.
I swear I can't understand why my W is pushing so hard for 50/50 custody as it's clear that she just won't be able to be there as much as she should. Maybe she doesn't want to pay CS, maybe it's just part of her fantasy that she will be a better mother just because she is D and will be happier. (I've read that this is very common with women who start a D. It's also the first thing they find out doesn't happen!). I can't imagine she won't have to work as many hours or go away as often. Oh, well. Just a little venting. I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.
Thanks again for the encouragement guys! Really does help!
