If you continue with this mindreading, you're only going to drive yourself crazy. Your W is confused so there's no point in trying to figure things out when she can't even do that. What do YOU want to do?
Also, you need to start a new thread as this one has already reached the limit and will probably be closed by the admins.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.