What to do II

[pilot]

It is hard Thornton, but I know you can do it. I really think I am on the path towards that right now. That does not mean I still do not hurt, or have "emotional flashbacks". Sure I do. Deep down I still have thoughts about my M working. But lucky (I think?) for me, the way I left it with my W was basically dont talk to me unless its about the kids. I have not made any contact with her for 3 weeks. I only reply in short punctual answers when she texts about the kids. I refused her hugs the couple of times I have seen her since our S. And I spend my time here GAL and not dwelling on her. From her perspective, I am moving on. Does that mean she has noticed or cared yet? Who knows. It would be mind reading to speculate. But since she was in at least an EA, I know to tame any expectations of any short S doing the trick. With that in mind, I am proceeding with my life as if she will not be in it. I am working on the things I know I need to for myself. It does help my ego/frame of mind/fear of being alone that I do have other options readily available. And while there is definitely temptation to act on at least one of those options, I will put it aside for the time being. Mostly so I can continue to become a better person and be emotionally available for that person.

You can do it as well. Of that I am sure!