Hi all - "was never in love"

[Mat]

Oh man

I need to have Sandi's rules tattooed on every part of my body. Just had a conversation with W on the phone. At least it convinced me that I really need a coach now, but I wonder if I messed up too much.

After my somewhat unsuccessful dinner (chronicled above), I decided to start figuring out the practicalities. Genius that I am, I sent her a mail with ideas for apartments she could get and ways we could split marital assets as part of a D.

She ended up calling me just now, a bit upset about bringing up D without having talked about it first. So I apologised, and took it as a sign that she was hesitating and starting to be open to the possibility of working things out. I proceeded to violate all kinds of rules, talking about the future, questioning her reasons for wanting to end the divorce, re-explaining why I was against it, referring to the book... she then accused me of having sent that message to manipulate her, using techniques that I read in a book!

I really thought I had the hang of this. I should be smart enough to do everything right; it's common sense and I was not feeling emotional when she called. I'm just so upset with myself now. I am really close to the precipice. She has reiterated, at the end of the call, that her views are still the same. She does not see herself ever changing her mind.

All I had to do was follow the 37 rules!!!! GRRRRRRRR