Nothing much to report today. H texted last night to see how we're doing on the other side of the world. We were at a kid activity so I let him know that and just answered "just fine" to his questions if we were OK. He sent a second one asking specifically how I was and apologizing for not reaching out to me while he's been gone. I answered I'm fine, thank you. He gave me a little bit of info about his travel schedule and I said OK. After a few minutes I added "travel safely" and he answered OK and that was it.
Checking the finances this morning, as I've been doing daily since I decided to contact the attorney, and I'm SO depressed to see the way the money is just draining away. Quite a lot of it is reimbursable travel, but there is a stupidly large amount attributable to the separation. Part of the point of moving away from the west coast was to improve our financial situation and that entire goal has been obliterated by the fact that he didn't want to address our marriage problems honestly with me instead of making decisions that ensured we'd just blow through cash like it was nothing. It makes me sick to my stomach.
I'll see him Thursday morning and then not at all for 10-12 days. While I'm gone on vacation with the kids he'll be moving out of our house and into his blasted apartment. That week he'll spend even more money furnishing the place. Meanwhile I'm trying to figure out how to save my pennies (thank you whoever recommended the blog Mr. Money Mustache).
I don't know when the attorney will be done drafting the separation agreement. I don't know how we're going to present it to H. I don't know if he'll just sign it or if this will turn into a dragged-out affair. I don't know how long it will take to implement it. Until then watching the money drain out will be very frustrating to me.
Sigh.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
