Thanks to ALL re your replies! I felt better after reading!

AJM - I have to disagree w/you though! smile This is NOT a crappy club. LOL Since MLC will occur, & is obvoiusly 'an evolutionary flaw', clubs like this are a lifeline ;0). So many of us are isolated by our spouses, it is great to feel less so here. Will check the stickies as you suggested. Appreciate the reassurance “it’s NOT me”!! Yay! Thx again.

BklynMom - I also thought of yoga, but as I mentioned before, I really don’t have the extra cash at the moment. I also have ill parent and am carer re: her. Whatever cash I get, I pay for help some days to get break/rest. The reason I was concerned about my 'frozen nature' is to be able to write & illustrate - my only means of income. I am considering starting (yoga) on my own until I can afford to take classes. It’s a good idea (4 mind & body!!) thx again

CadeT I see what AJM meant (!)
re: >> Cadet has a tendency to pop by and post a consolidated list, but in the meantime those should be good reading.<<
i did actually start reading some of the resources /stickies just after posting (wrong sequence I know LOL), but had so much nervous energy & could not reveal here that I just posted). Thx for the comprehensive list!! I am looking forward to learning more - 'Knowledge is power' ... it creates more control for self, & I think it is that lack of control that gets us experiencing nervous energy & listlessness. The unpredictably of what the spouse/partner will do/say next. Appreciated.

MrBond - 'death yet a new life' (speaks ‘volumes’). It is wonderful to read your reply (like the others). The posters' responses & perspectives bring some semblance of sanity back to me, after being immersed in this choking, fast-whirling, unrecognizable crud. crazy


Matt165 Just read your post as I was coming on board to respond. Thank you for the valuable advice & words of encouragement. It was good to read of your own experience re: this. It's encouraging - the experience is so awful. I know I will re-visit whenever I fall off the tracks LOL


Really wish that I found this site before!
Thx again ALL for taking the time to respond

pbetra

pbetra
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M: 15 yrs (in 2014)
BD: 6/03/2014
Infidelity ('known' from July 2014)
Denied PA Feb 2015
2 leave Mar 2015 (left early Summer). Some contact.
Back briefly 2017 (after family death)
Separated 2017