For my part in all of this, I was depressed, angry, and just not right. I felt worthless, not good enough for her, and didn't think the W really loved me for me. I see that all of that was me and my feelings, mind reading and just down. The biggest thing I have tried to change is that. I feel better, not so depressed, not so worthless, and better equipped to handle every day life. I am down right now, and find it easy to float back and forth between being that way and positive. It is getting easier to see positive, but the feelings for the W are coming back in drives and what do with those is very hard at this point. I have read and skimmed over DR numerous times. Trying get a handle on my feelings. The more time passes the better I get. I know will take lots of time. Hopefully I can proceed to a better place for me.
