What I want is for him to want to work on the marriage, but he is so wrapped up in his own stuff and pretty much told me he has no interest in doing that.
What's wrong with this ^^^ sentence?
[/quote] I forgot to address this part. I know what is wrong with that sentence is that it is all things that are beyond my control. I can't force him to want to be with me and I haven't been trying--well to be completely honest I have slipped up a couple of times, but for the most part, in the past 7 months I have been really good about not trying to force him to have a change of heart. But it doesn't change the fact that that is what I want. That is the ideal. I can settle for second best. I will be ok, and move on with my life if I have to, but that is not what I want. I want us to fix this!
However, what I really, really don't want is to continue on the way we have been. I'm so tired of all of this. I'm so tired of the loneliness. I'm so tired of worrying about money all the time. I'm so tired of always be the one who sacrifices and always having to be the one to say no to the kids because I can't afford something when I know he can (although now I am just telling the kids to ask him rather than having to say no or deal with a conversation about it with him). I just wish he would grow up and decide that this family is worth fighting for. But that is totally out of my hands so I just have to settle for second best.
40s 2teens M14Y BD-10/12/13 rec-1/14 BD2-5/14 rec2-9/14 EA disc-10/14 4/15-BD 3 and triangulation ensues Served with D6/15 MS forced to leave7/15 D agreement signed 8/16 final 5/17
