The girls & I are doing great. They are so amazing. Although I have come to Need my weekends without them just so I can get a break.
We are looking forward to an amazing summer when school gets out in 2 weeks. We are planning to spend a lot of time at my parents house in upstate NY and also have a 1 week beach vacation planned with extended family.
Things are frosty with my exH. As I continue to keep my side of the street clean it has become more and more glaring how crazy,distant & removed he is.
Last weekend which was exH weekend with the kids, exH parents came for a unexpected visit. It was also my D4 dance recital. She was amazing!! exH, kids and his parents and I all walked back to my house together. During that 10 minute walk it was just so glaring how normal I was and how strange my exH was.
My exH is so high functioning - very successful at work and he is quiet, so it was hard at the beginning to see his distress, and that made me feel like everyone must believe him that I am a crazy B!tch. Even I believed him.
Now as time goes on and my exH continues to make selfish and self centered decisions with no regard to his kids, i.e. wanting to move to manhattan, taking more work out of state. I feel like even his parents are starting to see that he has a problem.
Its important for me to write about this stuff because I truly believed for so long that this was all my fault. I was a bad wife and a bad woman. That is so far from the truth.
It was funny a woman asked me after an Alanon meeting the other night if my exH was still active and I wanted to say "Oh no he's not an alcoholic" but I caught myself and just said "yes"
Life is good!
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
