Thanks, everyone for the replies. I guess... it's over.
I did feel over the years that I was doing what he needed me to do to bring us closer. And at a couple points, he was trying to piece and I just missed it. Three years wasted. He still won't say he doesn't love me or that it's hopeless. But he's making it impossible for me to stay here and achieve anything in my life.
At this point... I suppose... short of any unlikely reversal from my H... all I can do is get rid of what won't fit in a Uhaul trailer and get out of town. I'm stunned and depressed. Been walking around in a daze since Wednesday... not good since I now have a monumental amount of crap to do.
Can't believe this is happening. Things had been really great between us lately. But I suppose, ultimately, I'm just not that important to him... despite the fact that my goals would provide huge benefits and stability to everyone. I'm really trying to not be selfish... just practical.
He's really angry with me right now about moving. But he still plans to go get his stupid apartment this weekend. Told him he could have most of the furniture. Most of it is cheaper to replace than to haul 3,000 miles. This really s#cks.
I'm really trying to not be selfish... just practical. 
