Well I've had a pretty rough weekend. H showed up Friday, talking reconciliation still, but it just doesn't seem like his actions match his words.
We talked a bit about our relationship and what he told me was it's all my fault, he says he was perfect (his word) in the marriage and I've always been a pain.
He didn't show up for sons surgery and is still downing d15 to the point she never wants to see him again. He insisted we go see son yesterday together. I didn't want to - I told him I don't want the kids to think we are getting back together and he said we are getting back together so what's the big deal? Is this man deranged?
He admitted that he's drinking again. Seemed to think it was funny. No h, not funny, your an alcoholic. Said I make him mad because I don't like his only friend, his 23 yr old buddy who he has a bromance with.
Needless to say, I took a big beating yesterday, although I didn't go into detail but feel free to ask questions. I'm having a really hard time today with my emotions. I'm so hurt by the things he said and the way he treated d. And then he has the nerve before he leaves to remind her to tell him Happy Fathers Day. This after he had just told her she's just like her f-ing mother, an f-ing smart ass. Nice thing to say to your kid that you hardly see.
My IC says that he believes there is still hope if h will get help. That this is not just mlc but also dealing with his behavior from drinking. I really just don't know how much more emotionally I can handle from him.
