Journaling:

I still have 5 days until my big interview. Been spending the last week preparing and learning about the company.

Man, do I hope......

The last three nights have been interesting. I've had some really bad dreams. I think it might just be anxiety about the job.

1. Dreamt that my ex-fil was still alive, but I watched him die, just like my mom. Weird thing was, XW wasn't in the dream.

2. Dreamt that XW was leaving all over again. Again, I was going through the pain again and crying and begging her to stay. I woke from this dream and actually felt relief when I realized that she was already gone and I survived. Weird.

3. Dreamt that my little brother was still alive but killed himself all over again. In the dream, I was the one that found his body and I was the one that had to tell my mom.

I just figure it is nerves and anxiety about the job interview. Just wanted to share....

Tad


Currently:
M 56 XW 57
Sons 38,33,31,29

The Sitch:
Married 26 years
EA w/ OM 9/10
Bomb 10/10 (5 weeks after 25th anniversary)
Sep 12/10
She wants D 1/11
W files 5/11
D final 10/11
XW marries OM 6/13