UPDATE: Our final hearing for the D is scheduled for next Tuesday. It's scheduled for 15 minutes - that's it. Crazy, huh I think I am feeling the most angst out of it because I keep thinking to myself I should be more stressed / should feel more anxiety about it - if that makes sense. I was on vacation with my S last week and really didn't even think about it a lot. I took the day off work next week, and I'll probably just go for a long bike ride afterward, weather permitting. I am volunteering as a crew leader again for VBS at my church. My focus really seems to more on what I'm going to be doing this weekend, next week and beyond. The hearing is just something I have to take care of next week.
The good news is my W and I are getting along better than we have in a long time. We've got out to eat together a few times with my S. TBH, even though we're getting along pretty well, I can't envision her being a part of this new life I built for myself over the last 3+ years. I think it would take her indicating she wants to get back together, and doing so with conviction. Also, she has given me NO indication she does not want to go through with the D. Like I mentioned in an earlier post - if nothing else, she feels the need to check the box to bring the D to fruition, whether or not she feels it is still the right decision. She actually seems a little bit healthier now emotionally and I'm glad to see it. It may be because the D is getting close to being finalized or it may be product of working on herself, or it could be a combination.
I think I am feeling the most angst out of it because I keep thinking to myself I should be more stressed / should feel more anxiety about it - if that makes sense. I was on vacation with my S last week and really didn't even think about it a lot. I took the day off work next week, and I'll probably just go for a long bike ride afterward, weather permitting. I am volunteering as a crew leader again for VBS at my church. My focus really seems to more on what I'm going to be doing this weekend, next week and beyond. The hearing is just something I have to take care of next week.
