What to do

[Ben2010]

Thanks Nettles. Always love to hear what you think too.

I didnt understand that either from the IC. It felt like kicking me when I was down. I think he was just being brutally honest though.

1.Porn- we discussed this today and its weird but I really have not looked at it at all since she left. I have found some helpful things to read to keep me off of it. It seems to be pretty easy right now, but I am not taking it at face value as this is not something that I ever want to backslide on. Right now this is the thing that I am most proud of that I have been working on. A bonus is that Im pretty sure its her biggest concern too. I thought it would be harder than it has been and I am thankful that it hasnt been. I do have a fear though that I may have just been drawn to doing something that I could be caught for.

2.Massive mood swings-I am on Wellbutrin right now and it seems to be helping with this other than the fact that I cannot get any sleep on it.

3. Always been mean to her-This I am going through anger management right now for, but the C says that he thinks it may all be linked to the shame I feel from porn and deceiving her. The Wellbutrin may also affect this as I have been diagnosed with depression which creates anxiety and turns into anger.

I am glad that you see it that way. I also thought that at first that she wasnt the "typical" WAW. I pray that you are right and that I dont have to go through a full blown crisis here. I am glad that this situation happened for one reason-it woke me up to things that I would have never faced before. I told my W this when she said that she wished that this didnt happen. I said that I didnt because of the above reason. I will continue to work on this with everything that I have. Again I cant say this enough, you guys are the best support group I could have. So many different outlooks on things but always great advice.