Came home later than expected by a lot.. a 180 for me... didnt say hi got changed had a shower shaved and then had a cig.. said hi in a over enthusiastic way and then went to the bedroom.. she called me to the kitchen and said she made pizza if I wanted some I said ill have it later if im hungry.. told her I got our letters from my mums house.. she went n checked.. I went on my fone as usually she complains but I dnt give a [censored] now... she wants a divorce im gna do woteva I want now.. she can do wot she wants..
I got changed and she asked where im going.. acted like I didnt hear.. then told her im going out ill b back in a bit.. she said u sjldnt have come home.. I kept it very soothingly sweet and said I had to have a shower.. she said u couldve had it at ur mums.. I said nah I dont feel comfortable using someone else's towel.. she said its ur mums u could've.. I said nah.. well bye... closed the bedroom door n got my shoes.. she got up n opened the door.. which she never does she always has the door closed at night.. odd.. but I left n went out.. another 180 for me.. she must definately think im up to something.. oh well I need to get cigs.. but lets extend this cig journey.. ill go back when shes asleep so its a whole day wothout me.. shall I sleep on the sofa to tonight? That would be another 180 or is this too much? If I sleep on the sofa id be expected to sleep there everyday.. damn uncomfortable sofa..
Im listening n giving her space.. im being nice.. she is just my room mate now.. n I need to stay focused.. any tome I have anything on my mind ill speak to my friends here.. even the ones that have forsaken me.. but I understand.. forgive me im young and ignorant and foolish..
