Left Behind Newlywed

[Pluto]

Thanks, mlc! That means a lot.

We did start dating when she was very young... both of us were.

I have thought about how to handle the anniversary, which is essentially next weekend. We don't have kids, and I don't have any means of sending her a card or anything (I don't even know what city she's living in, let alone the address). I thought it might be best not to text her at all on that day and continue with no contact.

I did end up having to text her to let her know a package arrived here for here, and she wrote back apologizing about not coming to get her mail (which she's asked that I just leave in the box for her, so I did) and then said something out of character - "I hope you've been well." Well is not a term she uses ever. Normally, it would be 'good' or she'd just simply ask me outright how I'm doing. I responded letting her know there was no need to apologize and that I was just keeping my word. She told me she appreciated it. I also told her I was doing fine, thanked her for asking and told her I hoped the same for her. She told me she was well too. That word again.

But, as Sandi says... It means nothing!

Looking forward to a relaxing weekend. Going to play my weekly hockey game, try to meet up with a friend for dinner, and hopefully get a locksmith lined up.

If/when she is done with OM, I'm not sure I'll be willing to take her back anymore... but that's not a decision I have to worry about today - so I'm going to live my life how I want to. I'm going to learn how to cook better for myself (and others). I'm going to do a better job of cleaning and taking care of the house. I'm going to reconnect with my friends and not alienate them like I have in the past.

Above all else, I'm not going to let this break me. I'm an honorable, trusting guy. My values dictate how I behave and treat others. I'm ambitious and competitive, but I also have a good time and like to think I don't create/keep many enemies.

My life is going to be awesome, and it'll be her loss that she's missing out on it.