For Making Magic....

[Ambivalent]

WOW!

Making, this is so so sad. I read this whole thread. I am just stunned and so sorry you are allowing this person to be in your life. It is as if you think there will never be someone out there to SHARE in a relationship which is mutually satisfying.

Note I used " share ". Not " give " you the relationship. This person is SCREAMING at you in behavior and words.

He is just not into you. He smells your fear and desperation, which is suffocating him. He knows he can occasionally get a piece of axx and that you have no self-respect. If you don't have it, he'll NEVER have it.

You can say you have it, but the fact that you are in this situation, prolonging it, allowing it... well that too SCREAMS !


Please look these up : Signs you are in a toxic relationship

Why men pull away

Red flags of a bad relationship

Why you keep hanging on, when it is time
to let go

How to get the relationship, not the man
you want

Nice girls finish last

MM you are swimming upstream. He has you wrapped and you are accepting poor behavior and modeling poor behavior. Only when you let go and move on, will you gain a better perspective. You are too close to this situation to see how absolutely self-hating you are. You make excuses for him and your behavior. YOU CANNOT CHANGE A PERSON ! YOU can only change YOU! The definition of insanity is doing the same thing hoping the outcome will be different.
Even though you believe you are not doing the same thing ...you ARE. You are constantly throwing yourself at a person that has NO respect for you. Has NO intention of becoming what you want. Knows he has the upper hand, and doesn't want it or you.

Yup, this is a 4x8. This is a losing battle, let go . PLEASE.

Be the BEST mom ever, and show your daughter how strong you are. Get a life, and STOP focusing on him. If you won't work on you, then focus on your daughter .

Get into counseling and work on loving and accepting you. I don't care how often I read you do, your actions, words, and excuses are OBVIOUS to anyone that you don't. If we can see it, and not witness it, imagine how easily he can !

Hugs and a pump. <3